pretty in pink!

20090809

i knew this day would come but i didn't think it was so soon): ):

omg i'm freaking sad how could he go so suddenly??? he was still running ytd): ): i miss you sparkle): i don't want you to die): ):

bye sparkle....): ): ):

and it's national day; i won't ever forget the day sparkle died):

i <3 sparkle ahhhh this is the saddest national day ever ):

20090801

actually, all i needed was to have someone to listen or make me laugh when i was down. it would help not trying to say more to make me feel even more failed, you know? sensitivity?

kay, but whatevs, i'm gna look up, cause i'm gna get that B this test, i'm halfway there(: and i'm gna mug cello, i promise. i'll shoot i'll shoot i'll shoot

i'm gna get there!!!

20090713

it is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves;

for all the things that i want and wish for, i will make it happen, someday. even if it's not happening now. yet. (: i'll be optimistic yuppppppp

school's sucky and stressful but so what, i'll still have to live life and make it through all of it, i've done it before anyway.(:

maybe it's that part i just can't accept. but i'm not going to be reckless i'll be cool and calm(:

maybe we're not meant to be.

20090619

WTH, LIFE FREAKING SUCKS BIG TIME.

where are you when i need you? i hate it when people always say "i'll always be there for you, okay?" but then they actually don't care about you a few months later, just cause they MOVE ON so freaking fast. I HATE ___YS, they freaking suck. why are all of you so mean people huh?! i vow never to get close to a __y again.

and everyone should stop thinking i'm stupid, OKAY?! even if you're much smarter you have no right to think i'm freaking stupid. i know i'm stupid but i'm not THAT stupid. KAY I CARE ABOUT THINGS LOTS AND AND I PUT IN MUCH MORE EFFORT THAN YOU THINK. (i'm not only talking about one person anyway, it's MANY PEOPLE it's not funny even when you think you're joking.) there's a limit, yeah???

GET OUT, 10000problems in my life.

and you're gone.):

20090607

god, you didn't have to put it that way. and i always knew that you would comment on that.

that's the freaking reason why i hate reading people's blogs. don't you think it's mean to talk about people on your blogs? wth.

20090530

time passes so fast... it's already june now, and blocks are coming, omg i feel like we hardly started studying. and so many things happened, syf and concert's over): i'll miss the seniors alot boooo D: i want time to slow down..one year's gna past so fast and Alvls will be here): i'm really scared of how fast the time passes, grahhhhhhhhhhh

okay, blah i'm typing freaking crap and i sound so emo-.- but there's just so many things to do i don't know where to start and i have so many mixed feelings i don't know what to feel, omg

sometimes i just don't know what to think of people, i wonder why they react in certain way or say certain things. maybe its like their personality, but is that a flaw? i don't know, its subjective.

you know, thats why i think its best if we don't think. i don't wanna think.-.-

20090413

so, i haven't blogged here in years but hey that doesn't mean i don't blog somewhere else. kay but actually still not really.

today's such a depressing day, and it was way beyond horrible. except i think the masterclass was quite nice. everyone's so pro): i wanna be pro too.

I WANNA PON SCH TMR. ARGH there's tests like almost everyday this week until next monday. WAH MAN LIFE SUCKS-.- hahaha life sucks is still funny.

okay i can't think straight i'm not only feeling depressed i'm super tired and i have some bad headache ever since like i don't know what time. and now i can't seem to be sending anything to sarah MSN SUCKS LAH grah okay bye i hope i survive these two weeks. or three weeks. OR TERM. wth-.-

if i told you that i realised you're all i ever wanted

and it's killing me to be so far away

omg omg why don't you talk to me at all.):

20090219

okay wth there's strings tmr and i'm damn dead, i hate suk now suk sucks okay the day i can play the freaking cross string thing fluently i'll treat myself to something HAHAHAHA-.------ STUPID FOURTH MOVEMENT GRRRRR AHHHHHHHHHHHXZXZXZXZX

STUPID haha i was so agitated cause i totally can't play suk and i'm going to be the only idiot there who can't play suk tmr. yeah and, i haven't done chem tutorial and i really can't do it.):

WTH I'M GOING TO DIE FROM COUGHING. I'VE BEEN COUGHING EVERY 5 SECONDS SINCE I DONT KNOW WHEN LAH shitzxzxzx haha okay i'm not a twit i don't use zxzxzx but it looks so cute hahahhahaha

AHHHHHHHHH MY THROAT IS BURSTING. if i'm coughing like that tmr i think i'll die from coughing even if i don't die from doing chem tutorial. okay lah no one dies from doing chem right i'm so retarded.

20090211

okay i didn't blog about orientation, haha i loveeee OG21!<3 it's like the best OG ever:D:D:D okay i hope we still have outings and dinners, we had so much fun together(: 21 DING DONG hahaha!

oh 21 was my register number, cool eh:D

<3 (:

we have more picturessss on facebook yay hahaha.

okay i hope my ct gets more high and bonded, now everyone's super stone): A-A-ARTEMIS!!!!:D hahahaha okay war games tmr GO ARTEMIS!

20090128

i officially hate going to malaysia. today was a horrible day): malaysia is terrible. and it's worse than i expected 0.0 which was already very bad already.

okay but the reunion dinner day and first day was wayyyy fun:D that's cause it's not boring with lahlah hahah(: I LOVE GUITAR HERO HAHAHHA

and i do not suck at taptap!):

okay sarah stop embarrassing me. it's too horrible): i will die a horrible death and so will you. changeling with lahlah tmr<3 i'm totally glad that there's no school tmr. except that there's hcse auditions the next day, and i didn't practise for uh 3 days 0.0 wow. okay i will practise tmr. i mustttttttt and

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

AUDREY
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lovelovelove

since i'm sixteen, here's sixteen things about me!

one i love pink, and you may think i'm a bimbo but i'm not.
two but actually i think i'm kinda stupid.
three i love my brother (except sometimes)
four i love sarah even more<3
five i actually appreciate having a cousin who grew up with me more than i appear to(:
six i have this great love for glitter(blingbling) stuff.
seven i figureskate. i learn figure skating.
eight i know nobody believes me cause' i don't look like the figureskater-type, haha.
nine actually i suck at it. i suck at all sports.
ten i'm not great at music either):
eleven but i do love music, alot. esp cello.
twelve i may seem a happy person in real life but i'm not really.
thirteen i have a dog and i absolutely love him to bits. my hamster too.
fourteen my hamster's name is sparkle and i love his name cause' it reminds me of glitter.
fifteen i actually don't like alot of things that i don't tell people.
sixteen i'm a great fan of jay chou:D and beethoven. haha!

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